Category: body

Wednesday!

I just got an email informing me that my Livejournal account will be purged in 3 days and that if I wish to retrieve it, then I need to undelete it. Of course, at this point I’d long forgotten about LJ, but hearing that name brings back nostalgic memories. Good times, man. I loved LJ, the simplicity, the lesser popularity, but it stopped being what I needed it to be. Not to mention that some less-than-desirables were getting ahold of it. RIP, LJ.

This past weekend was fun. I donated blood through Inova on Saturday which opened my eyes to some interesting politics in the blood donation world with Red Cross. I assume, therefore, that given Red Cross’s aggressive campaign for blood donation, that hospitals must pay them for use of the blood, so Inova doing blood drives means they cut out the middle man altogether. It’s true that their phlebotomists seem to be extremely knowledgeable and experienced, but then again maybe it’s because I brought up Red Cross and she was determined to outdo them. Anyways. I rewarded myself with Monster Hunter for the rest of the day. Giving blood doesn’t get me right away, but I end up feeling pretty tired later on and mildly lightheaded. Props to the Inova phlebotomist, though, because I did not have any bruising at all. The dogs begged to go out, so I went out to do the weekly poop pickup lest we end up with yet another Liana-poopie-foot incident. I turned around to see her giving me that begging, mom-can-I-lay-in-the-sun-pleeeeease look, so I set out their beds on the deck. Nothing makes that dog happier than chasing squirrels and sunning herself in the warm grass. I wish more than anything that I could give her what she wants: a yard.

Sunday saw us going to sunrise mass which I actually prefer, but this was brutal because of Daylight Savings Time. I needed to go to it because I required a Certificate of Sponsorship to be a Godmother. Father “Screamer” or “Scissors” as we call him, is a young priest whom I dread having as the officiant of the mass because he has this annoying tendency to have these homilies that are 1) excessively loud, and 2)somewhat dark and negative. I hate them. Not to mention his demeanor too is a know-it-all-let-me-show-you-what-I-can-do-how-much-I-know-I’m-great-at-Latin. I hate showoffs. I’ve had lots of time to dissect his personality and character traits and I’ve concluded that he’s just like Idiot at work. I don’t even know him personally but I already know he’s not someone I can stand being around for long periods of time, because he has no self-confidence. There’s a desperation and strong anxiety in him to be accepted. He wants so much to do well, and it comes at a cost to his individualism. She does this too where because she’s not happy with her own person (as it’s not getting people to like her), so she starts to take on other people’s traits and tries to be other people. It doesn’t work. Well, after mass, I go up to him to ask, and I immediately feel bad when I approach him: he’s standing there looking to shake people’s hands while at the same time looking a bit sad because people keep running off with nary a glance. He lights up when I approach and then there’s the lack of sureness as I start to talk to him, then the relief when it’s just me asking for the sponsorship eligibility. He asks me to wait and I do, then he leads me off to the office to get the paper. The pastor comes out and asks Scissors if he’s OK and if he needs him to take care of it since it’s only 20 minutes before the next mass. Scissors repeats twice that “no no no, he’s got it, he’s got it.” Father Meng then cracks a joke and later I look back and realize that (it’s just the 2 of them here at the church and basically it’s like mentor and mentee) he was trying to make it all less awkward, and he must be fully aware of Scissors’ anxiety and tendency towards overexcitement. He was just trying to defuse it all. I continue to follow as the pastor wanders off, and my own gut tells me that there’s anxiety abound, so I start to make small talk just as I do for my patients to take their mind off and try to place them at ease. He’s still abuzz with excitement that he’s doing this thing and we sit and he’s taking his job super serious now and we fill it out. When we’re done, we say goodbye have a nice day and such and he’s saying the same thing but overdoing it. Everything to the extreme. I felt bad. Like, really bad. That desperation, that anxiety, for people to like him. He lit up instantly and was so super excited that I asked him for something. Those are the type of people I want to help find their self-confidence, but I know that’s a road that is very long and fraught with obstacles. Those are also the type of people that fervently need to learn calm and acceptance. Peace. Be at peace. Know yourself. Let it go. I never said he was a bad person or mean or dumb (unlike Idiot). He’s very intelligent and very nice. Just….chill, man. It’s OK. Not everyone has to like you.

Monster Hunter all day!

Monday was RW time. I’d managed to draw a strip last week, and finally was able to ink and get it into the computer. I really need to do more of it, but the creativity is wandering off and in when it feels like it.

DST made work go by very quickly yesterday even though I was so tired (I’ve been sleep walking, but that’s a story for another time).

Saturday is going to see me attending the Super Pet Expo! I don’t usually bring my dogs, but I dunno….should I this year? I always try to come early so I miss the massive crowd, but then we’ll have to stand in line forever to get in and they hate standing around. We shall see.

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Muscleees

I’ve been trying hard to get back on track with the fitness. Originally, I was just going to give up until the New Year, but my body says, nope, you better start now! And continue that forever! I’ve been having loads of issues with not fitting in my clothing, having to buy bigger ones and weighing so much that it scares me. My goal right now is to get rid of the tenacious belly fat that is annoying me, although it’s not the belly fat that is the issue…the clothes fitting problem is a thigh problem. The belly is just an indicator that I’ve let myself go too far. Again. And that my body is so unforgiving now. I’ve been neglecting the cardio, but my sporadic working out has been very sporadically routine with the weights. As such, I put on a t-shirt I haven’t worn in a year and was blown away at how small the arm holes are! Like, they got stuck at the junction between my deltoids and biceps! I’d been having issues getting my shoulders and upper back into some shirts and coats for much of the year, but it’s humbling to wear a shirt that I’ve been literally wearing (at night) since my freshman year in high school (I liked big shirts and stuff) and finally be too beefy for them. Haha!

hehe…it makes me feel good about it. Similarly, I dropped by Walmart on the way home from Christmas shopping because I remembered I need 2 more lights to finish up the decorations outdoors and that I needed to buy my mom’s present from there. I decided to do the outside checkout closer to my car (I always park super far away from everyone. Good exercise!) because I was hefting a fire/water proof security case. Well. I think I stood there for 30 minutes straight lugging that thing. It was a good exercise in muscle endurance, and I was using my back to help out (one of the nicer parts of being a female is having lower carrying strength), but I was pleasantly surprised at my ability to hold it for so long.

It’s great to be able to feel like I have some progress made especially when it feels like my body is taking giant leaps backwards on size. Muscle does weigh more than fat, but then again I don’t go by numerical weight. It’s all about how I feel and my fitness ability level.

Doggone it

I forgot to cut my nails and it’s Tuesday again! I can’t just go cut them now because working dentistry and fresh cut nails don’t go together. Guh. Will have to do after work.

Speaking of after work, I am taking care of a cat for my friend while she is away. Sat through yesterday was fine, but starting today I’m a little concerned because I won’t be able to get there until late. Today and tomorrow will be fine, but Thursday…………….

Things to do before beach trip: make Gable’s vet appointment and be prepared for another chunk of money lost, pack things, get items from other house (which I straight up forgot in my exhausted state). Reef-safe sunscreen: check! Expensive stuff, let me tell you. Hope that I still fit in my swim-stuff.

I spent Sunday and especially yesterday walking around like a zombie owing to muscle pain, but I found my eclipse glasses! At Walmart! Aaaand I’m glad I dragged my mom with me because we found sunglasses to go to the beach with! I’d forgotten all about it since I broke my old ones. It’s got to be genetic, too, this inability of mine to mop up lactic acid buildup in my muscles. Debilitating! And these days it’s not the second day for the most pain, it’s the third. That is my new standard for someone coming out of youth. I learned that from my patient. Quads and hands, mostly. The sunburn is unnoticeable unless I’m leaning up against something.

Did you know that squirrels are interested in laser pointers too and will follow them? Also, I think my cat allergy is getting worse. It didn’t bother me the first day or two, but I’ve progressively shown more signs of it the more I time I spend with the kitty. Who is adorable btw.

Why don’t I ever sleep well when I have to go to work? At least this weekend will be longer. Must make vet appointment this week.

In other news I bought a cheap semi-rigid endoscope from Amazon. MWAHAHAHA. It works really well when I fed it into the interior areas of my car, but it has trouble focusing well in some instances. Also it doesn’t fit in my ear. Darn. I don’t expect much given how cheap it was, but the lack of focus is a little disappointing and leaves you wanting. However it will be useful for finding items in little places, plain old curiosity, seeing things behind my neck, or even magnifying small text. Too bad my phone is too high tech for it. What limits are there for something like this? HAHAHA. Did you know that a closeup of your auricle is weird? They’re strangely pitted. Mine has some sort of large pit/scab on it.

 

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I can look at the far reaches of his mouth with this! Quality isn’t too bad, yeah?
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Yes, this is the inside of my left nostril. VERY COOL. 

 

 

 

FRIDAY

WHoooooo!!!!!

Made it to the end of the week! Which means tomorrow begins my marathon of WORK for the other house to get the yard into selling shape!!! And it’s going to be like 90 degrees!!!

HEAT STROKE FTW.

I’m really sleepy. I guess I haven’t been sleeping too terribly much again. Sigh.

So on Wednesday I got my orthopedic back cushion for my car. I spend 8-9 hours a week commuting and my seats have zero lumbar support so more and more I’d found that my lower back is flat instead of the S curve that the lumbar region is supposed to have. Yesterday was the first day I used it. It’s…bulky and feels weird and now I need the head support for it too because since it pushes out my body my head is floating around in the air and I’m afraid if I get into an accident the head support won’t be able to protect me as well. So in the morning and then again after work, I have to get used to it again and it takes like 15 minutes to do that. Moving around, adjusting and I swear it affects my driving for a little bit. However, it forces me to sit up a little straighter. Similar to when I switched out to my Merrell’s for my feet it’s almost painful to adjust to. My feet had 26 years of bad shoes to overcome and my back only needs 5ish years, but man when I switched shoes it took almost a year to really feel the benefits. It’s strange, like more aching to adjust to something correct, reprogramming my muscles to accept this corrected way of operating instead of compensating for it. My family found it hard to deal with the shoes and no one has made the full switch because it doesn’t give you instant relief, but I had a major reason to keep my faith in the shoes (namely my back and ankles…and dogs) and through my perseverance my body is very well off now and I can’t go to any other shoe. No back pain or rolled ankles since!

Here’s hoping the car cushion will be as successful. Just one day of use (after the initial adjustment period) my back doesn’t feel the same pain. It’s multi-faceted, though, because my work postures is quite awful, so it’s overcoming all of those. So far so good.

Gotta take of this body, you know? Especially when I’m too lazy to do the workout like I’m supposed to.